Madison Awakening

I’m warm. My body feels like it’s wrapped up in a sleeping bag. It’s comforting but not stifling. I flutter my eyes open, straining from the sunlight flooding the room. As my eyes start to focus, I realize I’m not home and I’m not at the Hampton hideaway.  Shitt…. Jonathan is wrapped around me soundly sleeping.

Shit shit shit…

I passed out when he went to take his phone call. I broke my own damn rule. I lie still, fighting against my instinct to jump out of the bed.  My mind is swirling trying to figure out an escape plan.

Okay, I need to get the fuck out of here. What time is it? Where is my phone?

Thankfully, the universe is on my side and Jonathan rolls onto his stomach, releasing me from his hold. I maintain my stillness and look over at him to make sure he’s still sleeping. I need to pee, get my clothes and call an uber before he realizes I’m gone.  Time to go back to reality.  A small part of me feels a slight tinge of sadness that I’m leaving this beautiful man behind, but I quickly push that to the side and focus on what I need to do.

I look over one more time to check that Jonathan is still unconscious, put my hand on the ground and I slide out of the bed. I made a slight sound, so I lay on the floor to see if he heard me. Once I’m sure the coast is clear, I crawl on my hands and knees to find my corset and dress. I quickly scan for my panties but decide I don’t have the time to search and abandon them. I grab the pieces and continue crawling, till I get to the doorway. I take another look back, make one last mental picture of his beauty and I crawl into the hallway before I stand up.

Once standing, I quietly race to the guest bath nearest the living room. I face the mirror and I look thoroughly fucked, makeup smudged and butt naked. I try not to judge myself and just use the toilet, wash my hands, try to look human then throw on my dress.  When I open the door, I peek out then race to the living room. I grab my purse, take out my phone, see it’s 8:30 and order the Uber. 10 minutes? Shit. Okay okay, I’ll just slip outside and wait. It will be fine. I then check my text and see I got one from Ashely at 3 am.

I’m home but you’re not…

I quickly text back that I’m on my way and see her in twenty minutes. I look around to see if there is anything I left, beside my panties, grab my shoes and start heading to the door. I put my hand on the handle, then turned back to view the glass castle for the last time and mean it. I take a breath, turn the handle of the door and just as I’m about to open it, I hear my name.

“Madison…”  

Fuck…

I look down at my phone and the uber is seven minutes away. I’m going to have to face him and explain. Fuck, Fuck, Fuck…

I straighten up, keep my face ambivalent and ready myself for this confrontation. But when I turn around, he is standing at the end of the foyer completely naked. I swallow hard at the sight of him but resolve to stick to the plan.  

“I didn’t want to wake you.” I say matter of factly.

“So…you were just going to leave without a word?” He replies coldly.  

“I just didn’t see the need. Plus, I have to get to the house and pack to head back to Brooklyn.”

“What do you mean ‘didn’t see the need’ exactly?” He says and starts moving towards me. I back up in response and look down at my phone again. Four minutes…

“Come on Jonathan. We both know what this is and what this isn’t.”

“Yeah? So what is this…in your opinion?”  

I see the tension in his jaw and shoulders. I try not to let his body distract me from my escape.

“Jonathan, you and I live in different universes. Last night was a perfect example of that. I think you are great but this was just sex. Amazing, mind blowing sex, but nothing more. You enjoyed yourself and so did I. You showed me an amazing time while I was here and I am grateful but now I need to go back to my life.”  

As the words come out of my mouth, there is a sting in my chest. Everything I’m saying is the truth, but it feels painful to say it out loud to him. But it must be said. He stops walking towards me and just stands there. I can’t read his face but the tension is radiating off him. I wait for a response. Two minutes…

“Fine, if that’s how you see it, you seem to be resolved. I’m happy I could entertain you.” But there was no joy in his tone. His words are dripping with venom causing another pang in my chest. Thankfully, my phone buzzes because the Uber has arrived.

“My Uber is here. Thank you Jonathan. I wish you nothing but the best. Goodbye.” I say with a weak smile then open the door and walk out of the castle.  I don’t look back. I focus on the sedan and move quickly to get in while the tears are starting to press to the surface. 

“Madison?” The driver yells.

“Tommy? Yeah, that’s me. Thank you. Please get me out of here.” 

“You got it.”